wow, its like a month since my last post..well been bz with work n assignments...

last saturday(4th), I had an open house. A bit disappointed as not many came. I budgeted around 60 and only less then half came. But it was fun though.

Here are some pictures

thanks for those who came.

3 dotted lines

...
the 3 dotted lines.
It tells your whole day.
It tells your whole week.
It tells your whole life.

The path is already chosen for you.
It says that you can choose between the two roads.
But what if the roads are already chosen?
what's left?

the 3 dotted lines.
You can say anything.
You can tell everything.
It wont change nothing.
The path has been decided.

good or bad?
its the 3 dotted lines.

risk taker

I am annalytical, Im not a big risk taker.
However, Im willing to take risk fo the other person...Why?
Bcoz i dont value friendship. Im always wondering y i always am into girls who already have bfs
Well the most obvious one is bcoz, all the cute girls are all taken, so thats y im into them. the other thing is, I want to see what kind of person they all are. Good kind hearted girls will not give opportunity or hope. The naughty ones are those who want a fun ride.
The confused ones, are undecidable.
So why take the risk of losing friendship over this when uncertainty is the end?
Because the one for you might be one of them. -end-

Msg from the long lost

no its not my mom haha
its my first love...she finally msg because she have to go study abroad.
The weirdest thing is, the night b4 I recieve her msg. I dream abt her.
I guess the string is still attached. Couldnt believe it my self though. Its been 3 years, but still I can feel her. Talking about special bond huh? well, the suckiest thing is, I am the only one who feel the bond but not her. It sucks.
But Im really glad that she decide to msg me first. I promised her that I would say hi first the next time we accidently meet in the future.
Now that things are a bit clear between us, Its time for me to move on. I hope one day I have the courage enough to go and approach another girl.
Met a cute girl in the library the other day, but still not ready to approach her even though notice that we both were looking at each other.

Never easy

Its never easy to let someone you go.
Its never easy to forget the person ou love.
You can sacrifice a lot of things to make that person happy, but you can't find happiness for yourself.
Everyday you will think about her at least once.
Every night you will turn and turn on your bed thiking about her.
Every meal becomes a need rather than want.
Every breath becomes harder and harder as if you will fall.
Every steps you take will push you back to the ground.
Every moment you take a pause, it will remind you of the good times.
No pain is unbearable as the lost within you.
and every pain, there's a gain.
To think that she will be happier with someone else,
To think that other person will take better care of her,
To think she will be smiling everyday,
To think she will laugh with full of joy,
To think that she will soon lead a better life,
Is worth the unbearable pain.

Its never easy.
Thank you Eza for being there for me, Dayana for staying there with me listening, and everyone who has bear with me all this time. This warrior will never forget.

its just a little too late

no matter how you change,
no matter what happened,
you know its just a little too late.
I cant change fate,
I cant change the fact that I was born 2 years later.
But its just a little too late.
No matter what happened now,
I will never look back for you,
Its time to move on,
This is your lost,
I have nothing to lose,
No matter how you change,
You should know its just a little too late,
not for me, but for you.

Let the truth be untold

I love you
I love you with all my heart

When you smile, my day is as bright as the sun shine
when you laugh, it is like the greatest day that could ever happened
when you are happy, I am happy as well

For you I will run to the top of the mountain
For you I will cross the ocean
For you I will
For you, I will bare the burden of this pain in my heart
for you, I will let you go
For you, I want you to have the best thing you could ever have
For you, I will leave my heart behind

I hope that you will find the right person because I love you.

Its not easy

Forgetting how hard it was to realize the truth
To forget someone who you are attracted to after a long time of search
To feel alone again
To be back at square one
To know that you don't have a chance to work and make things better

Its not easy to realize that you are encouraging yourself rather than the truth
Ouh hope...Where are you?
Why have you left me be?
Why leave me in such sorrow and mess?
Ouh fate...When will you come for me?
Whenwill you bring me to my other half?

Following the deepest thought in your heart

Sometimes your heart might be influenced even by a single sense. Your heart is week. You feel sorry for someone, that is a weakness. You feel that you should give a chance, and that is a weakness.
However if you think through it, give it time, your heart will make the best choice for you. But its a matter of yourself following the right choices.
This is final, I had enough of her fickled mind. If she wants to continue to play this childish game of love. Than I'm going to let her play alone. It will be the best choice I ever made.
Heart, for so many times I avoided your advice. But now, I'm willing to listen to you as I'm hoping that you guide me to the right person. Please heart, I'm counting on you.

confused....

Ouh heart, why do you easily get affected???
Why is she doing this to me???
Why does she have to come and tell me that she misses me when I already decide to let her go???
Altough when she admitted she misses me, my heart started pumping really fast...like Im happy again.
But how long will this last?
You know it will never work...so why the effort of tryin???
So she ask me to go out with her because she misses me so much....so should i???? dont ask my heart coz it will only give me one answer!

July

What a horrible month it is. This mont's unrelenting effort to bring me down has gone up to the point where I realize that karma is cathing up to me.
Somebody once told me that everything happened for a reason and whether it is good or bad, it really reflect on what you did.
So here I am thinking back on what I've done and it is true. I am changing to nothing but a useless unworthy person that I hate to be. But I realize now it is me who need to change my ways, so from today onwards its going to be the new old me.
Lets see what happened to me this month.
Yesterday I was stopped by JPJ because of my super dark tint. Luckily for me it was too dark at night, they were unsure of whether its too dark. So I didnt get a compound. However I have to take off my tint before the inspection tomorrow.
Earlier before this happened, another incident occured. I checked my compound, and I realize that I have to coumpunds which hasn't been settle. So now I have to fork out my own money to pay the compounds.
However not to say that everything turn out bad for me this month, I did have a few good things happened to me this month. My pay was good, so I enjoyed my money. I bought a super small flash drive and MP3 player for my car. On Monday I will go shopping with shikin. So all is fair.

Road knowledge

So its 10 am, my friedn called me to follow her to her interview in KL because she doesnt know the road. Well the stupidest thing is, I am also bad with roads in KL, but my road knowledge is better than her though.
But like every stories I will always tell, I will complain shit about this stupid Am bank. So its not my fault. :P
Well here's the thing, Am bank is not really a popular bank, but they have almost like 5 branches in the golden triangle! whats up with that?
So here we are trying to find the road to am assurance building. So we called my smart ass brother, and he gave us the wrong direction to another am bank building. Then I stopped and ask the guard, and he gave us directions. Only that those directions are just so damn hard to
follow when you can't imagine how to get there. So we reach another Am bank building... and its not it... Im beginning to stress out...I mean what the F***?? how many building do you want to have in one place??? Do that money for marketing for god sake!
So we finally gave up, and about to head back, we use a different route to go back...and how amazingly we should have listen to that pakcik guard because we saw the damn building on our way back. What the??? well cant blame me, coz Im seriously bad with roads.
Ouh yeah, and I'm going back to work on thursday! yeay! so money money come to me! ciow!

Korean Drama (K-drama)

What am I into this month?
It's K-drama. Well this is how I get myself out of boredsm. I'm currently into this drama called Goong which in korean means palace. Its a humical drama about a prince still in his high school years but were arranged marriage by his grandparents to this cute yet energetic girl. The starting part of this drama shows how the prince refuse the proposal and shows hate towards the girl. In the middle he then realize that life with the cute girl is not so bad and he began to like it. However in the midst of this love story, another royal counterpart is trying to regain his position as the crown prince which was transfered to the current royal prince because of the counterpart father's death.
It is kind of exciting to see the cute and energetic girl trying not to like the crown prince. Its funny and sweet at the same time. Plus there are two adorable girls in there.
You can download it at D-addicts.com or just watch it on youtube like I do.




picture courtesy of DramaWiki


Here's a preview of Goong.

crappy month

I know the month isn't over yet, but somehow I find it rather boring this month...
These are the things that happened this month:
No jobs
No school
wasted a lot of money
attracted the wrong kind of people
couldn't get the one kind that I want
wasted a lot of time doing nothing

Here is what I was supposed to do:
Learn chinese
Learn japanese
gain weight
gain muscles
make new friends
take abunch of pictures

Reason for not doing so:
I'm lazy like hell