cruise mode

I've decided to put my life on cruise mode...
last time I did this, I actually achieve more then when I'm actually working hard...

Cruise mode is where my heart shuts down... n only my brain n body works...

No more caring about others... no more conscience

Cruise mode here I Come!

Life after Tuesday

Well like I said from the last post, if monday doesn't work, then I have no choice but to change for Tuesday.... argh I'm really fed up now...
Why things always have to turn out the other way around??? Why can't it just go my way?
Now is the time I feel that I really need that special person beside me... unfortunately I lost all the special person that was close to me...
I'm sad...
I need a change... Please guide me, show me the way so that I am clearer...
Everything is so blur... I need that light on the road so I can sit on the pavement and wait for my ride...

If I'm supposed to go further then this and I'm underachieving, please show me the way..
If this is my resting period.. please tell me so that I don't have to worry...

I may not look it, but I'm on the verge of a breakdown... I'm really depressed... please someone.... Help me... I need you.