Choo Choo Train is moving without me

I feel like im on the slowest trail, while the train is leaving without me.
life is like the train tracks... the train is where I should be...
but somehow I feel like I'm moving too slow and the train has just passed me by.

why do I hate where I am now?? why can't I just move on?

I realize that I'm holding on to the past and that makes me hard to move on...
when will I move along with the train?
Soon... Monday perhaps...but what if monday doesnt happen?

then i have to change on tuesday...

Hafiz starts writing again...

It's been a while since
1. I write
2. I read
3. I show emotions

I'm not sure whether I like what I've turned into...
trying to be good
trying too hard
being too nice

and all that sums up to my feelings being compressed and never let my heart tells it's story.

I feel its really important to constantly make decisions from your heart rather than your head. That way you feel more in-touch with God. Thinking using your hear (logic) only answers for the living. Decisions have to involve your heart too, otherwise why would god give instinct?

But what about love? why such complication? when you do something right, you feel like you're doing something wrong. When you follow your heart, you might hurt someone else...

Where is the solution to love? ...maybe I should be single like my fren told me. that way I wont hurt anyone... but myself

In this situation, do I think with my head? or my heart?

yeay my first post after ages of keeping quiet