cruise mode

I've decided to put my life on cruise mode...
last time I did this, I actually achieve more then when I'm actually working hard...

Cruise mode is where my heart shuts down... n only my brain n body works...

No more caring about others... no more conscience

Cruise mode here I Come!

Life after Tuesday

Well like I said from the last post, if monday doesn't work, then I have no choice but to change for Tuesday.... argh I'm really fed up now...
Why things always have to turn out the other way around??? Why can't it just go my way?
Now is the time I feel that I really need that special person beside me... unfortunately I lost all the special person that was close to me...
I'm sad...
I need a change... Please guide me, show me the way so that I am clearer...
Everything is so blur... I need that light on the road so I can sit on the pavement and wait for my ride...

If I'm supposed to go further then this and I'm underachieving, please show me the way..
If this is my resting period.. please tell me so that I don't have to worry...

I may not look it, but I'm on the verge of a breakdown... I'm really depressed... please someone.... Help me... I need you.

Choo Choo Train is moving without me

I feel like im on the slowest trail, while the train is leaving without me.
life is like the train tracks... the train is where I should be...
but somehow I feel like I'm moving too slow and the train has just passed me by.

why do I hate where I am now?? why can't I just move on?

I realize that I'm holding on to the past and that makes me hard to move on...
when will I move along with the train?
Soon... Monday perhaps...but what if monday doesnt happen?

then i have to change on tuesday...

Hafiz starts writing again...

It's been a while since
1. I write
2. I read
3. I show emotions

I'm not sure whether I like what I've turned into...
trying to be good
trying too hard
being too nice

and all that sums up to my feelings being compressed and never let my heart tells it's story.

I feel its really important to constantly make decisions from your heart rather than your head. That way you feel more in-touch with God. Thinking using your hear (logic) only answers for the living. Decisions have to involve your heart too, otherwise why would god give instinct?

But what about love? why such complication? when you do something right, you feel like you're doing something wrong. When you follow your heart, you might hurt someone else...

Where is the solution to love? ...maybe I should be single like my fren told me. that way I wont hurt anyone... but myself

In this situation, do I think with my head? or my heart?

yeay my first post after ages of keeping quiet

my gf is out of town

Here I am again, bored...
My guy friends are just too manly to talk too... my girl friends are...I have no idea what happened to them... I guess Im not that close to girls like I thought. Though I miss having best friend...esecially the one u can talk to.

well what to do, life is like that. So now, I just have to make do with what I have.

I'm gonna start posting my shit here, and some pictures perhaps if I'm lucky enough to be able to take some nice ones. As I know I do not own a camera, some of the pics are from my phone cam and some from my friend's digicam.

so here it goes.

Open your eyes...

Sometimes you always want what you can't have.
But who sets the limit of what you can have and what you can't?
we always limit ourselves by listening to someone, by setting a standard, a boundary which we are not supposed to cross.
The thing is, life is a whole. Nobody says there is a limitation of what you can or can't do.
Open your eyes and see the wonders of life, what people have achieved, what people are doing and you call them crazy or look at them weirdly. Even if they are weird, at least they have achieved something they want. have you?

Have I?

I want a life of my dream. After so long, finally an opportunity comes. and to tell the truth, I don't think another opportunity will come after this or at least not for a while. So this is my chance. My chance to grow. But why am I don't feel positive? I know that I want the job, I know that I want to leave this company. So why?

I kept on thinking that I limit myself. A lot of people will be better than me on the interview.

So now that I know, I need to think clearly. I am good! I am suite for the job!
1. They shortlisted me because I am a POTENTIAL candidate; which means I am fit for the job.
what are my strengths?
1. I am creative
2. I think out of the box
3. I am young
4. I have a great attitude
5. I am a learner, a fast one
6. I love marketing
7. I have dreams, big ones
8. I am determined
9. I am a multi tasker
10. I am a fast mover

I have all the package that they should invest on.

wow, its like a month since my last post..well been bz with work n assignments...

last saturday(4th), I had an open house. A bit disappointed as not many came. I budgeted around 60 and only less then half came. But it was fun though.

Here are some pictures

thanks for those who came.